Ever had a dream which was so detailed
it was almost real? So rich in experience that it was like you were really
there. When you wake, you grasp for air, shaking your head to identify if where
you are is reality and what you did experience wasn’t. An experience so
overwhelming that the emotions and feelings it reignites just seem too good to
be true. After all it was only just a dream.
From this short anecdotal
adventure, I have come to realise that the past events have been some of my
best years and I didn’t even know it at the time. They were also the times were
I was at my bravest, at my strongest. Reminiscing through old conversations,
old pictures and past accounts of my life has made me realise that maybe I have
forgotten some good old honour. Honour to stand up in what I believe, and to be
known for the person I should be and have always aspired to be. My only wish
now is that from these moments, memories and past events I shared with others, is
that I have been able to plant seeds of encouragement, influence and
foundations to greater things into those around me at the time. I hope that who
I was, what I did and what I stood for (as I do today) has been able to make a
difference, help, aid and produce good fruit to the very people I cherished,
and even those who were “my rivals” as such.
It’s almost 4 years since I left
high school. These vibrant years in my journey were essential to how I have
grown up as a man and a person in this world. I had made choices (both good and
bad) that have defined who I was and am today; I also made choices which have
rippled into the lives of others for the better. Well I hope so. The sad thing
is, I have always aspired to be a man of integrity, a man strong in God and man
who can be trusted in the rough and the easy, however the question today is:
have I kept those ambitions to the ones I spent my teenage years bonding with,
moulding with and growing with. In all honesty maybe I have with a minority… if
I am lucky. What about the others though? Have I made an impact to them, am I
talking to them today? Am I still reaching out and representing what I was
then, now? No. I have failed this and have come to realise the importance of
these years and what was made, shared and remembered.
I need to fix this, I need to
revaluate my outreach to those around me and re-identify how and why I should
be spreading my wings to those around me. Even if I can’t fix the past I can pursue
fervently with the people I meet in the future.
One thing I have always attained
is my ambition to help those around me, if they let me of course. No I don’t agree
with a lot of things people do and I might not like those things, but this doesn’t
mean I don’t want to care and love them. Just because I don’t agree doesn’t mean
we can’t communicate, we can’t relate or have a meaningful conversation.
Encouragement, advise, suggestions or thoughts all come from my intention to
only observe, understand, look out and recommend my solution to the problems,
situations, circumstances or whatever it is the person is experiencing.
With this all said, my point is;
we live in a world with rights and wrongs, ups and downs and yay’s and nay’s. I
understand that and I get it. We all have problems, we all have skills some
seem cooler some seem less, but we are all the same and we all have things we
go through. I may have experienced less than you or maybe more. Regardless, I
want to be there for others and I hope I have been. I’m sorry if we have parted
ways in the past but I still I hope something of the better is left standing
whether it is of past memories or words shared. All I can do now is aspire to
uplift, be there and encourage those around me and who I meet.
“Take care of all your memories.
For you cannot relive them” – Bob Dylan
“Memories of our lives, of our
works and our deeds will continue in others” – Rosa Parks
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